It's a tough business trying to get ideas off the ground. Especially trying to chart new territory. I find myself waxing and waning between moments of certainty and determination, and moments of hesitation and self-doubt.
Trying to stay in that space of hopeful presumption. Time for a conscious choice.
I'm choosing to let go and move forward from my negative thought patterns. I'm acknowledging them, honoring the place in me that they derived from, and visualizing them leaving. Out my window. Through the door. To the wind. Gone.
I don't need them any more.
I'm sure fear has its place. Warning of dark caves where literal hungry beasts could be hiding in the days of cavemen and hunters, a fearful pit in the stomach would be helpful. But this is not that. This isn't intuition's alarm bells, either. This is negative, critical self talk.
While I believe in independence, inner strength and a general "I don't care if you like it" attitude to doing your own thing and following your own bliss, it is massively helpful to be around encouraging souls.
Confidence is contagious.
So is fear.
Therefore, I'm making the choice. I will spend time talking to people who drive my ambitions not those who indulge my hesitation. I will listen to Abraham Hicks because it brings me joy and moves me into the vortex. And I will say words like "vortex" without irony or haughty derision because I genuinely talk like that.
Being in your twenties is universally hard. Or at least that has been my experience and the experience of my friends, family, pretty much anyone I talk to. There is typically an expectation now that one is an "adult" the previous self-discovery type quests and questions have been undertaken and answered. Nope. I'm still figuring it out. I'm fairly certain most of us are still figuring it. But I'm done comparing myself to others and questioning my desire to take the road less traveled.
I'm inspired by people who take different paths. I feel drawn to have an adventurous life. I don't think that is wrong. I think it will make me happy. And I believe that when someone is happy, everyone wins.
I have goals, aspirations and desires to live my life in a way that is true to myself.
Those of you who feel compelled to live a life that may be considered by some to be more radical, I hope you choose to be your most authentic self and listen to your inner cheerleader and not the inside (and outside) voices of doubt.
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